Collages and speaking of abuse.

Hey!!!

I hope that you had a wonderful weekend and have a great week!

I have a few things to share this week.

As usual, I made collages of some things for you!

The first one shows some jewellery that I’ve made to create awareness!

I’ve made this digital work in order to help send people to:

https://linktr.ee/haydenkristal

That way people can either donate or purchase items to help Squidward, a beautiful horse that hurt itself.

That is why my jewellery has charms of horses at the moment!

Let’s help Squidward get better!

Starting Monday I will be posting my paintings but will get back to creating jewellery as usual after that.

One week it’s paintings, the next jewellery.

For those who may wonder about my studio, it is on hold at the moment but I intend on finishing it when possible.

Many artists have multiple projects. I am simply one of them. It warms my heart knowing that I am not alone in having multiple projects!!

Next, I have some products to share.

As, I’m sure many know my products have been a bit Political lately.

That is because I truly believe that the South along with other places need someone to speak up!

People here have seemed scared to speak up for years.

I know from personal experience that someone can be treated awfully and be seriously abused, yet those who witness it here will often be too scared to speak up.

Even today and on my own block, people have questioned what are we gonna do about certain issues?

I’ll tell ya what you do , you report any questionable action to the authorities because it’s wrong and should be stopped!

Even if small, if left ignored people will think that the wrong behaviour is right.

That way of thinking will multiply ,as it has done in the past until you have countless huge society issues!

History has shown that, history has tried to teach that.

I truly wish everyone listened and learned from it so that past mistakes were not repeated.

Ignoring issues of concern is beyond wrong and can create emotional pain that lasts for years!

Harm that continues even today!

Victims of abuse matter too.

I know because I’m one of them and it has been ignored. In most cases it is ignored til this day!

I’ve been raped multiple times, sexually assaulted after having lost weight, etc. due to the side-effects of a medication that killed others and was taken off the shelf.

When I was in High School, a whole class filled with students did nothing while my arms were pulled behind me, sexual things were whispered in my ears.

All the while I cried out for help but everyone just laughed and the teacher acted like they were asleep!

After he offered my brothers a six pack of beer to stay quiet.

One brother accepted that! Beer over his own sister!

The other didn’t though and ended up fighting him but really he should have gone to adults.

Although, I wonder if the adults would have done much.

That wasn’t the time I was raped but around the same time of one event anyway. I’m not gonna go into those times.

I’ve been abused due to having seizures as well.

One teacher simply pointed at me after I fell off my stool, saying “Class, this is what you look like when you have a seizure.” She taught me that it was alright for others to treat me with such hate, while teaching the whole class that it was ok to treat people like that.

I am no lab rat!

Shame on that teacher and shame on everyone in that class who did nothing!

I am 43yrs old and shouldn’t even remember such horror!

Shame on Sol. C. Johnson for allowing their own student to be harmed like that! May they learn to treat others with the respect and kindness they deserve so that students today do not have to suffer so.

Only one student had the guts to care and help me.

That student, that KID was 3000 times more of a teacher and 3000 times more of a good human being than anyone in that classroom! A child should never, ever be forced to be a teacher. That is not their job!

I’ve had people laughing and faking seizures as I lay convulsing because they thought it was funny. Johnson had no cops in schools until my last year and only one at that time so nobody did anything.

It was ok to treat me like dirt.

I wasn’t worth much until I was on-stage after school.

I can’t even bring myself to go to a high school reunion because I was traumatized so much! Some did treat me nicely but I have way more traumatic bad memories than good.

Hey, abusers,

I forgive you for your monstrous acts upon me

but I shall never forget them.

May you never forgive yourself

and

I know that if there is even the smallest amount of you that cares,

not being able to forgive yourself is the worst torture of all.

You deserve that torture! You monsters of hate!

Just as I deserve peace by forgiving you.

This was years ago but I was a high school student who had to deal with emotional trauma already due to a physical illness.

Why are there any issues in high schools today?

Why do adults ignore the pain of children?

I question why this was ignored. Why was I ignored and why am I still ignored today?

Children today do not deserve to have to deal with the pain I go through!

The only place I was treated normally was theatre after school. Sadly, that was not every weekend and only during a show.

I did get to go to Choir rehearsals every week though and Church every weekend. That helped a lot because there were so many medical tests, etc. done on me in-between. Still, although my voice was known, I never got a solo.

NOT every child in high school today has the options I had though and they matter! Every single one of them matter.

Every adult may not stand up for them but this adult sure as heck will!

This type of thing should not happen. It does not make me want to stay in Georgia and does not make Georgia beautiful in my eyes. I absolutely believe that others may help here and I will continue making products that speak up but I sure as heck don’t wish to be here.

Georgia is no longer on my mind because it does not deserve to be. Georgia being a part of America has really made America look awful in my eyes.

I’ve also been emotionally abused due to people treating me badly because of the side-effect medications caused, etc.. Even today I am diagnosed wrongly due to it.

I obviously have PTSD but all of my side-effects stopped when I stopped taking many of the medications tried to control my epilepsy.

If they did not stop, if I were unable to create, be an artist, etc. I would wonder! I do have mental illness in my family history.

I am able to do those things though and more.

I still believe that I have PTSD due to Sol. C. Johnson and my seizures.

It’s just easier and better for the medical field, etc. not to take responsibility for what man-made medications can do. It’s easier for a high school not to take responsibility for not taking care of their own students as well.

I have not grown up thriving off of the pain of others and wishing for revenge. That doesn’t mean that high schools who ignore such issues and help people to feel very small aren’t helping violence to grow. Everyone does not handle such pain in the same manner.

Everyone does not know how yet.

If I didn’t have such mental illness in my family history, I wouldn’t have been prone to the reactions I had. It even warns people of such things on the bottles!

Gaining weight, loosing weight, suicide attempts, swelling of the gums, hallucinations, etc, etc. the list goes on and on. I have NO idea, why I am alive. NONE!

I bet, the medical field doesn’t either!

Marijuana by NO means creates all of those either! Due to that it should be legal for doctors to help their patients with. I would not suggest it alone for cases as bad as mine was though. I am also not a doctor.

Just like any medication it should be looked after but good luck finding those serious in that area. Although, if you are looking never give up hope because those who are serious are out there…somewhere…

Noone should be forced to suffer as I have and do today though.

It’s in my blood to be strong even having been abused, etc.

My past posts show that.

I long for Scotland, for green areas, to be around animals who do not judge but care.

I’m not sure of all the laws there but don’t think I would be treated with such disrespect and thoughtlessness there.

I do not long for America anymore because it’s nolonger the America I grew up in. Other areas in America may be much better but Georgia has made me ashamed of America.

I just live here because I have to and until given a complete choice do not feel as if I am free to choose.

If America is the land of the free, Georgia does not act like it!

Scotland is my land.

The fact is, if I live somewhere else and do not have the money to pay for the medication that can keep me alive, I’ll die.

The fact is I’m owned to a point. Only money can buy my freedom. The freedoms most were given at birth.

Some may have the option to pay a driver, etc. Yet, be so tired of that fact that it seems as if their freedom has been taken away. As CRAZY as it may seem, I understand that because they have the options those like myself don’t. They have the freedom those like me never had in our lives. Freedoms, I have dreamed of all my life.

Still, the grass is always greener , blahh, blahhh blahhh…..

I sell my art to gain that freedom. The freedom America says everyone already has. I do not lay down crying, etc. but keep going and always will for my freedom and to let others know that they can too. That doesn’t mean I do not cry!! I have my moments, we all do. It’s called being human but I get up and keep going.

I stand up for multiple different things and try to help with creating awareness of them but what is always on my mind is freedom.

I love NY and would live there as well but I’m just tired so I honestly don’t know anymore.

I do know that I speak up for others in my art, because if others do not have to suffer as I have with certain medications and being treated badly I will be happy.

It’s not about ME. It’s about wanting to help others.

It’s not just about my freedom but helping others to keep going so they can gain theirs.

I may not be in Scotland and I may not be in England but standing up for others is in my blood and will be in my heart always.

People also need to stop crying abuse when they have not been physically harmed though. You know who also did that? The girls in the Salem Witch Trials of 1692. History happens so you can learn from it, not repeat it! You shouldn’t speak up because you want to be on tv, etc. You should have more respect for those who have suffered than to do that.

There’s being physically harmed and there’s just crying about small things because you want the attention. I do realize that some are simply not as strong as others but that’s when you get mental help.

There’s also no shame in needing help to cope correctly. There is absolutely NO shame in that at all. There are those who do not understand it but please be strong because everyone matters!

Change will only happen on a larger scale , if everyone remembers that they are a part of We The People.

I still long for Scotland though.

I obviously feel very passionately about this and something tells me Roosevelt, J.F.K.. etc. did as well.

Still, my products are as Political as this artist gets.

If you have political questions, etc. please contact

https://staceyabrams.com/

https://warnockforgeorgia.com/for-georgia/

https://www.ossoff.senate.gov/

or

https://www.whitehouse.gov/

The only thing I fear is fear itself and that will never change because this world certainly needs to change!

I don’t care if I never get justice for what has happened to me and if nobody believes it. That does say something about America though because people watched and know what happened to me.

What matters to me is what I know to be true and how others are treated today. Everyone should be treated with kindness and understanding.

Have a great week!

Until next time.

Namaste,

Angela